Friday, December 21, 2012

my only xmas wish this year.

 


 Santa  oh Santa,
what i want for xmas,
is a someone i could spill out all my feelings to.
the person who is always there.
i'm not desperate,but i just miss having that special someone.i'm jealous that others can have one while i can't.but then Santa,when thinking back,i want a bestfriend not a lover.

bursting of tears

just finished filling all the PLKN forms. shessh. i feel irritated sometimes. why must me? there's a lot of people out there who wants it badly. ok well,i'm taking it the positive way. after flying to PD i'll fly to the UK. may i get thet scholarship. Amen.

Thursday, December 20, 2012

jealousy within






went to plaza merdeka td. well it was no high end as what we have in Kuala Lumpur,but it was an okay for a shopping mall in Kuching. *claps.

anyways,we went through all the boutiques there. Cotton On has arrived to Kuching. so meaning,i'll bever i repeat never where Cotton On ever again! adohyai. it's not that i'm a snob,but i don't want to risk myself wearing the same thing as others. Cotton On is reasonable and fashionable. *thumbs up and a sigh. there goes one of the brand that i love so much.


ok,back to the main point. i went there,and u know what? everywhere i see people dating. people the same age as me. it's not that i'm jealous that have a boyfriend. i'm just jealous that they've found their other half while i'm like sitting on a bench waiting. no offense Humpty Dumpty. i guess i'll just have to wait longer.

anyways,i'm still searching. but this time,i'll be a lilttle heartless.

mama and my two little musketeers entertained me a lot today. I want to take this oppurtunity to thank God for giving me such a wonderful family. i love You.


anyways,Saturday and Sunday i have weddings to attend. woah!


Wednesday, December 19, 2012

confessions of shopaholic




i miss getting done before a date.
i miss those midnight calls.
i miss those goodmorning texts.
what happened to me?
i've been like this every time the clock strikes 10 indicating it's night.
OMG!

suprise from papa :)

i love my dad. my daddy's name is Buckland. *smiles. an hour after Biology paper 3 to the exact,my papa called me. he told me about my suprise trip to London,Paris and Amsterdam. yes,my dream of going there finally came true. thank you papa. yes, this trip was truly a booster to me. a booster for me to accomplish new things at greater heights.

here are some of the pictures;
VOILA!












2013


 2012 has almost come to an end. sob sob *blowing the snot out of my nose. i know i've done a lot of mistakes towards others along the way so here i'll take this opportunity to say sorry to my loved ones. loved ones? that's my family and friends of course. i'm starting a fresh new life. a new life as an 18 year old teenage girl. yes folks,the big one eight. woah! who would ever taught that i've finally grown. there's no description towards my 18 year old life living here in this world the Almighty God created. but let me tell you something,i'm grateful for this life. the chance of being a girl named Brena Buckland.

i was raised in this small town called Kuching. the population here is really really small. u can always meet the same people at the streets. we're like practically neighbours! i've got my founsation here at Rainbow Montessori from 3 till 6 years old. then,i've stepped  *small baby steps , to primary school. there i realised everyone has their own interest in life. everyone was special in their own way. i remembered being the top in class,where i have to fight with Maria and Ernest. those two are like super smart! let me quote that again,they are like the SMARTY PANTS of my class.

then,after upsr,i got an offer to study at a sm sains selangor. a school that i disgust the most at first but in the end i tend to love it. there i met awesome friends. woah, i think if i list it,it will be like hundreds. but i think they know who they are.but then,it doesn't stops till there. friends from other schools came. suprisingly they became the most best-est friends ever. my struggle for PMR was tough but what to say about SPM? well it was a torture. umm,i think it's like this description,(it was like i was thrown in a dungeon cell and all i have was books to eat) now you can see how i suffered for SPM? but thanks to those who supported me along the way. i'm grateful to have friends like you. may God repay all your kindness.i can only pray for you guys and i wish all the best in life. let's remain friends,

every teenage girl would surely have someone they treasure a lot. well i've had those 'special' someone along the ways,and well i know i can be annoying sometimes but i'm glad you guys can cope up with the unbearable me.and for your information. i did not lie to you at that time when i said i love you. *peace out.
last not least,sorry for being an ass hole to u guys.

now,i'm soon to be 18. few days,it'll be xmas. and then,a new year,2013. i don't hope much,but i have a new resolution in life. i'll change for the better. a better christian,daughter,student,friend. i hope i'll get that desiringly 9A+. i want that so badly.  who does not? and yea,i hope to find mr right now. no more mistakes. ok that's all,hola 2013!. enough for my blabs now.

they'll soon be another one.
TTFN.